I felt really guilty as a kid, and I still do occasionally do whenever a reports or a video was shown of a plane crash (outside the cockpit.) There is a rather alien range of emotions that projects out of myself that is such: satisfaction, euphoria, as if I was being rather high and all of my anxieties gone.
I love simulating plane crashes. If you are friend with me on steam, you might notice in (intervals), there would be phases where I would spend 3+ weeks on the game Teardown. And it would be very likely that I was simulating explosive plane crashes. Every time I play it all of the guilt gets washed away as I derive pleasure off of killing millions of digital humans. Am I a bloodthirsty evil person? Well…… i wouldn’t like to be one.
It’s unfortunate that we have been getting quite a lot of commercial plane crashes as of recent. Last time our plane landed I genuinely thought I was going to die. The landing wasn’t exactly “butter”…
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